How you ever wanted something so bad, but reality is you know you can’t have this something? No matter how much you say to yourself “someday it will be mine”, but deep down you know chances of obtaining this something are quite slim. What do you do? Do you just give up? What if this something felt so right? It made you laugh! It made you smile! And sometimes it even gave you butterflies in your stomach! You realize that if you loose all contact with this something your whole world would become torn upside down. What do you do?

What if you knew you could claim ownership to this something, but it’s still far from arms reach? Do you still want this something? Your emotions begin to fluctuate causing your thoughts to overload because what you once knew is now uncertain. Thoughts of your future begin to change so that you can obtain this something, but is changing the path of your future worth it? Maybe it is!

What if this something is willing to give you this ownership but also willing to wait years before you actually accept it? Do you feel guilty this something is willing to do that? Would you ever want to let this something go? Let it slip through your fingers? Maybe not!

The answer to most of these questions are quite simple when you think about it. The connection with this something and you is quite strong, and the bond will never be broken. So why not wait to obtain this something? It is willing to give you ownership anytime you want it, but it is also willing to wait until you make claims on this ownership in years to come. The reality is this: if you and this something are meant to be together than chances are you will be because there is nothing in this world stronger than Love!

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 8:58 PM

I guess it hasn’t been that long since I posted, but it does feel like it’s been a while. Not much has been happening in my life these days. I suppose you can say it’s the some ol’ same ol’ kinda thing.

School has been stared for a while, and i have did a few assignments and a midterm. Marks were okay, but I am aiming to do better. You know me though..... I always want to do better no matter what.

Over the past few weeks I have been giving my future quite some thought, and it does scare me a little. I’ll be finished at Loo soon. Well, four more terms and counting. After Loo, it’s off to Brantford (Mohawk College) where I start and finish the “Rehabilitation” course (Ask if you want to know more). I’ll be there for a year and a half, so that’s not so bat. But here is where the whole thinking about my future part came in. I think I want to do Teacher’s College after Mohawk. There, I want to take Special Education. Reason? After I have completed Mohawk and Teacher’s College I will be extremely qualified to work in the field of “Disabilities”. Money won’t be too bad at all, and I should be in high demand since I am well educated. Make sense?

Love life is on the shits right now, but I guess that’s just how it is. All I can do it take it one day at a time I suppose. Plus, exactly how can I settle down when I have no idea where I will be for Teacher’s College, or after I finish Teacher’s College for that matter.

Yesterday, I signed up to do some volunteer work with the CNIB. I am going to visit a client tomorrow to help her put braille tags on her CD’S. Its kind of cool though. I get to have some experience of helping her live day to day much easier. My Rehabilitation course will be teaching me some of this, so getting experience right now is a great opportunity.

But anyway, it’s getting late and I am up at 8:00 tomorrow. I need to get some sleep, so I’ll keep you all posted on how my first meet with Janet goes.

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 9:19 PM

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know


That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore


On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know


That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore


So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more
Believing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go


~Lots of Love~ :)

Lori ¶ 3:46 PM