April 8th, a date I though I would never forget. A date with so much meaning and so much sadness. I was so wrapped up in my things and everything around me that I almost forgot the one thing that I hold so close to my heart. So close that it sickens me to even think I would ever forget even though the pain hurts.

Words can not express the hurt I have gone through this term, but I guess on the bright side it’s over now. About a month ago my Aunt died with cancer and it broke my heart so much. During the grieving period I though to myself “God…that is four people taken away from me in this world, and I know it won’t end”. Yes, I know it is life and I have to accept it, but sometimes it is just really hard. Also, during this time I feel behind in school, so since February (after reading week) I have had absolutely no times to myself; in fact, I had no contact with a few friends in Waterloo for a really long time (sorry guys). On the bright side, I managed to catch up and have “some” time to study for finals.

On the 6th, 8th, and 10th of April I had my final exams (yes a Saturday exam), but I think it was the worse week of my life. I worked so hard after reading week that by the time finals come around I was sick of school and wanted no more. What sickens me the most is that on the 8th of April I never though once about my Great Nan (who I hold very near and dear to me hear) once. She has been gone two years now, and I wish she was around to see how well I am doing with my life. I know she is up in Heaven looking down on me, but it is not the same. I really miss her and everyone else.

Now that school is over I have to idea what to do with me life. I am hoping to get a job, but it don’t start until the end of June. I think I am going to head home to Newfoundland for a while. Think I need to get away from things up her just to clear my head so I can focus on my final year of University. One the one hand, I really want to go back there. On the other, I am scared. I miss everyone so much. Each time I go back there something always goes missing. I can’t imagine not visiting my Aunt. She meant a lot to me and I looked up to her a lot. I will go back though. There are many friends that I want to see, and my little God daughter Emma.

Now that I think about it. God may take away people for a reason, (Maybe Nicole needed her mom. Maybe Grandpa needed my Grandma. Who knows!), but God also gives. (Sweet little Emma).

Anyway, I am just rambling on here. What this post comes down to is this:

I love you all……… hugs and misses
Miss you

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 8:03 PM

Oh yes! It’s that time of year again.
Exam time....
This time of year is always the most stressful for me, and it seems to never end. It feels like I have counting down the days forever. 6 more days!!! :) Can’t friggen wait.

Summer is almost here... OMG!!!
I have no idea what I am doing.
A big part of me wants to go to Newfoundland, but another part tells me I should stay in Waterloo and wok. I applied for various camp positions, but I have no idea where that is going. I applied for a job in Toronto, but I think I’ll have to decline because I can’t find a place to stay. Plus, I think if I stay in Waterloo it will save me a lot more money. I really don’t need to pay two different renters at this point in my life. Taking the job in T.O makes no sense what so ever now that I think about it.

On the bright side things!!! I am organizing a youth group for the blind and visually impaired kids here in Waterloo. I am working with Wendy, and she is also hiring people for a summer camp. She encouraged me to give her a resume because she thinks I will be a benefit to the camp. Sooooo..... if all else fails I have this camp in Waterloo to fall back on. Excellent!!!

Social Life! What the hell is that? The past few weeks I have been so busy with school it’s ridiculous.. Oh well.... I suppose in the end it will all pay off.

I just got this from a friend on MSN and I though it was cool: at two minutes and three seconds after in the morning, the time and date will be 01:02:03 04/05/06.

Anyway..... that enough for now..... I don’t feel like writing any more.

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 9:11 PM