April 8th, a date I though I would never forget. A date with so much meaning and so much sadness. I was so wrapped up in my things and everything around me that I almost forgot the one thing that I hold so close to my heart. So close that it sickens me to even think I would ever forget even though the pain hurts.

Words can not express the hurt I have gone through this term, but I guess on the bright side it’s over now. About a month ago my Aunt died with cancer and it broke my heart so much. During the grieving period I though to myself “God…that is four people taken away from me in this world, and I know it won’t end”. Yes, I know it is life and I have to accept it, but sometimes it is just really hard. Also, during this time I feel behind in school, so since February (after reading week) I have had absolutely no times to myself; in fact, I had no contact with a few friends in Waterloo for a really long time (sorry guys). On the bright side, I managed to catch up and have “some” time to study for finals.

On the 6th, 8th, and 10th of April I had my final exams (yes a Saturday exam), but I think it was the worse week of my life. I worked so hard after reading week that by the time finals come around I was sick of school and wanted no more. What sickens me the most is that on the 8th of April I never though once about my Great Nan (who I hold very near and dear to me hear) once. She has been gone two years now, and I wish she was around to see how well I am doing with my life. I know she is up in Heaven looking down on me, but it is not the same. I really miss her and everyone else.

Now that school is over I have to idea what to do with me life. I am hoping to get a job, but it don’t start until the end of June. I think I am going to head home to Newfoundland for a while. Think I need to get away from things up her just to clear my head so I can focus on my final year of University. One the one hand, I really want to go back there. On the other, I am scared. I miss everyone so much. Each time I go back there something always goes missing. I can’t imagine not visiting my Aunt. She meant a lot to me and I looked up to her a lot. I will go back though. There are many friends that I want to see, and my little God daughter Emma.

Now that I think about it. God may take away people for a reason, (Maybe Nicole needed her mom. Maybe Grandpa needed my Grandma. Who knows!), but God also gives. (Sweet little Emma).

Anyway, I am just rambling on here. What this post comes down to is this:

I love you all……… hugs and misses
Miss you

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 8:03 PM