Okay! I am not that drunk, but at this point there is so much going through my mind. My question is: why is it that I always want what I can't have? Or want what I can have, but it's just so far out of reach?

I suppose someday things will become much easier for me - I hope.

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 10:44 PM

Why is it that I am sitting here at this deck, and I feel so incomplete - like I am missing something. Something that I long for and desire. Something that’s holding on to me, and won’t let go. It’s funny how things easily get pushed aside and forgotten about (or forgotten how good it was). Before this particular something reoccurred it meant nothing to me (or at least I though it didn’t), but now that it’s back I long for it so much. It’s like an addiction, and I need my fix (of this something).

It drives me in sane. I think about it quite a bit, but I think to myself “this does make me a normal human being after all”. Everyone has needs, and that’s just exactly what this something is.

Aw well..... for now there is not much I can do, but just sit and wait impatiently. Wait until this specific something comes my way again. I sure hope it’s soon.

On a much happier note!!! School is going well. Although, I am up to my eyeballs in work already. It’s going to be a long and hard term, therefore, you won’t see me on here much. There is just no time. Don’t worry though... I’ll keep you all posted about what’s going on as much as I can.

I best get going now though. Gonna chat on MSN for a bit (screw work for tonight because I need a brake).

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 8:17 PM

Okay..... so I haven't posted in a while, but that's fine. Once you all know the circumstances you'll all understand why I haven't been posting. But for now I am keeping this short and sweet because I am heading to bed in like 5 minutes. So here is, in very limited detail, what I've been doing:

Trying to get settled into the new house
Classes started in school
Friends came back to Waterloo for another year of University
Went out to lunch a few times with those friends
Went to a concert
Shopping for things that were needed at this new house
Been doing lots of reading for courses
Went out drinking with a friend
Getting things set up for this fall term in school

That's all I can think of right now, but I think there is something else - oh well.

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 8:15 PM

Lost in my thoughts
I keep falling
Hanging on by a thread
What do I do?
Do I forget?
Not possible
Do I run?
No!

Life keeps forcing things on me
Do I know how to deal?
Not really.
Do I give up?
No!

I’m always faced with new experiences.
Am I scared?
Hell yeah.
What do I do?
I have no idea.
Will I ever give up?
No!

I’m too strong to be a quitter.
Never! ¶ 1:47 PM

She don't like her eggs all runny
She thinks crossin' her legs is funny
She looks down her nose at money
She gets it on like the Easter Bunny
She's my baby I'm her honey
I'm never gonna let her go

He ain't got laid in a month of Sundays
I caught him once and he was sniffin' my undies
He ain't too sharp but he gets things done
Drinks his beer like it's oxygen
He's my baby
And I'm his honey
Never gonna let him go

In spite of ourselves
We'll end up a'sittin' on a rainbow
Against all odds
Honey, we're the big door prize
We're gonna spite our noses
Right off of our faces
There won't be nothin' but big old hearts
Dancin' in our eyes.

She thinks all my jokes are corny
Convict movies make her horny
She likes ketchup on her scrambled eggs
Swears like a sailor when shaves her legs
She takes a lickin'
And keeps on tickin'
I'm never gonna let her go.

He's got more balls than a big brass monkey
He's a wacked out werido and a lovebug junkie
Sly as a fox and crazy as a loon
Payday comes and he's howlin' at the moon
He's my baby I don't mean maybe
Never gonna let him go

In spite of ourselves
We'll end up a'sittin' on a rainbow
Against all odds
Honey, we're the big door prize
We're gonna spite our noses
Right off of our faces
There won't be nothin' but big old hearts
Dancin' in our eyes.
There won't be nothin' but big old hearts
Dancin' in our eyes.

(spoken) In spite of ourselves ¶ 9:32 PM