Today was an ordinary day. Nothing out of the unusual really; just a few more hours added to my life. Well except for one minor detail I guess! Today I had my very last university level class. How do I feel? I’m not quite sure. Sitting through class all I could think about was, “wow this is it… I’ve done it”. Am I happy? Oh for sure. Am I sad? Words cannot describe. Has university changed me? Certainly! Everything about me over the years has changed, and I think all for the better. Coming out of university I definitely feel more confident about life. It’s definitely transformed me into a respectable and responsible woman. My life would have been so different without university – no doubt about it! Am I ready to move on with my life, to another school? To be honest I am not quite sure. Waterloo definitely holds a piece of my heart and it always will. The friends I have made will never be forgotten. The roommates I am able to call family, to me, I am gong to miss a lot. The knowledge I will take with me is outstanding. Despite all the stressors over the years, university is something everyone should experience if ever given the opportunity. ¶ 8:34 PM

Wow.. it’s been like forever since I’ve posted. I have totally neglected my duties as a blogger. Aw well… can you blame me? I have been really busy, and yes this excuse is good enough for me. So much has happened in my life and I have no idea where to begin. I don’t think I am going to sit here and recap every little deal of what I’ve been doing because that is just going to take forever. I think I am just gonna talk about what my current plans are.

Go figure! It’s my graduating term. Can you believe it? I sure as hell can’t. In December I applied to Mohawk College for the Rehabilitation Teaching program… god I hope I get accepted!!! IF I don’t get accepted then I think I might stick in Waterloo and work for the summer. Yes… this is a good plan. IF I get accepted I totally have to figure out where the hell I am going to live – oh my so much to think about.

On the bright side of things, school is going well. I am getting good grades, but I am sure as hell going to miss it here when I am gone. So many great friends who I will NEVER ever forget. My roommates are awesome and I am pretty sure I am going to miss them the most. They are definitely part of my family now. Thanks guys for just being who you are.

I really don’t feel like writing any more because it’s kind of making me sad just thinking about it. I am REALLY going to miss it here.

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 8:21 PM

Lost in my thoughts I think to myself, God I don’t want to do this anymore. I’ve had enough. I’m tired of being lost, or it seems that way. Sometimes I think how it would be nice to not have any worries what so ever. How that was so long ago.

How is it that some people are able to manage so many things at once - like it all comes so natural to them. Why is that that some people need to focus on one thing and one thing only? Clearly they must feel left out. Like there is something missing. Who knows! All I know is that I am really tied of everything and I want a life. Something that I can call my own. Something that contains less stress and more happiness. Is that so much to ask for?

Guess I must go. It's back to doen school stuff.

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 6:43 PM

Well guys, it’s 4:00 on a Saturday afternoon and I would have to say this week was awesome (but strange for me). It all started last week at Phil’s where I ended up meeting this guy who was really cute, but way to young for me. At the time everything seemed fine, but that was the beer talking. It’s funny what a person will do when they are drunk! LoL.

Last Monday Amy and I were at the bus stop on King and University and we met the nicest people ever, but I won’t go into much detail about that except that Amy is sort of dating the guy we met. We all went out to Abstract last night - it was awesome! Amy he’s a cool guy and a good friend! *hugs* There is more about Abstract, but I’ll get into that in a bit.

Two days ago I went out for drinks with a friend and we ended up at Felja’s in Uptown. While I was there this guy kept looking over at us and it was all strange. Close to the end of the night he finally had the nerve to come over and start talking. He’s really not into much (I think) , but he is super shy. He lives down the street from me, and he loves to play guitar (totally hot). He’s into radio head, and he is majoring in economics at U of W. That’s all I know for now.

It’s not over yet!

Last night we took the bus to Club Abstract, but on the way there this really hot guy (Matt) started talking to me. It was all so very random, and it all started with a really hot necklace that I bought at La Chateau that day. Apparently, he is a bouncer at Revelation Night Club (too cool) and he just moved here from Toronto. I got his phone number, but as of right now I’m not too sure if I want to call him. Oh yeah...(ha ha)... he thinks I should go to Modelling School ... ha ha YEAH RIGHT!!!!!

It still doesn’t end!!! While at Abstract my friend Amy decides to set me up with her friend Darrell. He seems really nice, but OMG way too shy. Like... he puts my shyness to shame. It’s nice to hear that you like me, but come on.... how am I suppose to know what you send NO hints. I am sure I’ll see him around though.

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But this is what I think........ put on a little make up and dress up a little... bam.... guys will like you! It’s flattering that they noticed - that’s why we dress up, I just hope I am this lucky in the near future - when I am done school.

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 1:20 PM

Hey all! I guess it’s that time of year again. You know the word... come on... you can say it.... School *feels like pouting.* Most of us are probably excited about starting up again, but mainly for the social aspect. Agree, or do you actually really like school? Come on... you can admit it!

Summer was good I suppose. I went to Newfoundland for a while and that was okay. Some stuff happened, but I am kind of glad it did. Less worries and drama to deal with. Just how I like it!

After I returned from Newfoundland I got a job, so I worked for 10 weeks. It wasn’t too bad. It was definitely a learning experience, and I’d probably do it again. In case you are wondering, I worked at a camp for blind and visually impaired kids. There were definitely some up and downs, but in the end it was a complete success.

I moved back in the ‘loo (no not that bathroom..lol) a few weeks ago. It’s good to back here. I missed it quite a bit! Since I’ve moved back I have been going out quite a bit, but that’s a good thing. I think I am still trying to settled down from work, but it’s not working well. I feel like I should be out doing stuff especially since there is so little time left to the summer.

Within the past couple of days this is what I’ve done:

1. Finished work on August 25th
2. Road trip to Ottawa on the 26th - 28th with Becky
3. Drink and Movie with Christine. Little Miss Sunshine.. Two words.... fucking hilarious!!! (August 31st)
4. Brother visited me on Sept 1st in the ‘loo. We went to see Talladega Nights: The ballad of Rocky Bobby. LOL..... so funny! Hakuna Matata Bitches!!!
5. Phils = So TRASHED Sept 2nd. All I got to say is awesome time Amy!!!! HA HA HA SO YOUNG!!! Hmmm Subway!
6. Movie: Step Up. Wicked movie. That guy was hot!!!!! (Sept 3rd)
7. Star Bucks: Drinks with Lance. He’s cool Amy *wink*. Also, the Spur and Tim’s in Uptown. Good times! (Sept 4th)
8. At Jared’s house with a friend to watch Season Premer of House and Rock Star: Super Nova. You Rock Lucas, but I think Toby is gonna win. Sorry Guys. It’s true!!! (today!!!)

Yes, this might look corny, but when I read this blog in a couple of years it will be cool to see what I did.

Ia m starting to feel super tired though. It’s like after 1:00 so I should be off to bed. Think I needed this early night tonight! Probably gonna hit Phil’s tomorrow night. I’ll have to wait and see.

Anyway, I’m out! I am sure I’ll post back here form time to time due to my procrastination. Good night!

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 10:12 PM

Smoke curls through my hands
These one night stands
Are making me crazy I know
Morning I'll go
Crowds in the rain all passing by

Faith gone from your eyes
Each word it flies
Taking you further away
And come that day
There ain't no easy way to cry

And as I watch you leave I stand
Inside my house of straw
And everywhere I go I find
Things recollecting to my mind
How right it all could be

Faith gone from your eyes
Each word it flies
Straight to the heart and I know
Watching you go
There ain't no easy way to cry

So right now
So right now
So right now

And as I watch you leave I stand
Inside my house of straw
And everywhere I go I find
Things recollecting to my mind
How right it all could be
Could be

So right now
So right now
So right now
So right so right
So right ¶ 9:58 PM

Lust:
A) An overwhelming desire or craving: a lust for power.
B) Intense eagerness or enthusiasm: a lust for life.

Lust is a condition that holds onto your mind with a force so unbearable that it doesn’t matter if it’s right or wrong. It’s a want, an obsession, a desire (as stated above)…. It’s an infatuation! Take for instance a job position. Within a workforce, for some period of time, people will do just about anything to achieve that higher power or to achieve that bonus on they pay cheque by trying to look good; even if those are actions are foolish or unreasonable, for it is an extravagant passion of want.

This concept of Lust is a strong power and it does and can influence those who choose to take a chance with love. Take for instance someone who just wants to be with someone for the sake of being with someone. No… it is not right, but there are people out there who do go against the grain and choose the wrong path. On the bright side of things this, my friend, is called taking a chance in life! Sometimes this extravagant passion or attraction leaves potential for future happiness, but it could lead to absolute heartache. Pick your choice!

Life is about going against the grain, taking a chance regardless of the consequences because there is a small change it might work out. I guess it’s like that saying goes, “You’ll never know unless you try”.

~Lots of Love~

Lori ¶ 9:20 AM